Monday, January 14, 2013

Give It Up.

That's what I'm thinking of. Right now. Giving up. 
Nothing is working out for me. Why does that happen? Right when I have lovely ideas I want to bring to life.

Solder won't flow.

Solder flows to wrong areas, or where it just shouldn't be ... At. All.

I feel like I'm lost. 
Feel so inexperienced and out of my depth.
Like I should be able to do more than I am.
Feel so left behind.

Doubt is really seeping it's way in. 
I don't want to walk away for a while.
I want to stay and make the things I've already made in my head.

I wish I had the knowledge and experience to do what I want to do.
It's available for me to get it, but time, money and other factors are holding me back.
For now.
So I have to make do with what I can do.
Which right now, doesn't feel like very much.
Doesn't feel like enough.
I want to have fun.

It's meant to be fun right???

Signed - Miserable.

6 comments:

BIKBIK AND RORO said...

Aw, it's just a dry spell, like a bit of writer's block -- trust me, you do beautiful work!

littlecherryhill said...

Aw thank you so much for your comment!! The day ended even worse than it started - my daughter broke her arm!! Will blog about that later ♥

GetSilvered said...

This too shall pass - don't give up - I'm a big admirer of your work!
Sorry to hear about your daughter's broken arm too!

Rag and Stone said...

No doubt about it, your work is inspiring, well-made, and creative. Whenever the fire doesn't cooperate, I make myself some tea, take a walk, and get out the sawblades for a little piercing! Sometimes, studio days want to make me cry when things don't go "my way", but then something else always comes of it...something better and more established than was there in the first place. Keep pushing, it's just a fluke.

littlecherryhill said...

Thank you Pam!! Summer is doing so much better now and it's only day 2.5, wish I could take the pain for her :(

littlecherryhill said...

LOL Erin, I would have gotten out the saw blades, but I broke them all too - at least the ones I needed anyways :( Thank you so much for your upbuilding comment!