I've left my title blank.
I guess it resembles how I'm feeling at the moment.
There is so much to be done.
Knowing where to start is the hard part. Though usually I'm a list writer, I'm uncertain if a list will help me get organised right now, but it's worth a try.
It is 3 years at the end of this month, that I have been working with metal.
In celebration, I am having a 30% off sale through my entire Shop
to thank you for your support!
So back to why I'm feeling blank.
It's been 3 years since I taught myself to solder and quite frankly, I don't feel I have come far enough in that time.
Obviously I've had other commitments.
I.e. my daughter.
She and her learning/growing/happiness/wellbeing comes well before mine.
Right now she has a question for everything, possibly in the realm of 150+ a day.
I know there are many other mothers out there who juggle a hobby/business and a family (who have more than 1 child) and I don't know how they do it.
But can I have some of what you're having??!!!
I spend far too much time comparing my work to others and my skills to theirs and instead of getting over it/past it or doing something about it, I get despondent and critical.
Constantly saying to myself 'I wish I could do that '.
or 'why can't I do that '
or 'they do that so much better than me'
This, as I'm sure you are aware, gets you nowhere.
I know this.
So why do I do it to myself?
I don't know.
I'm going to vacuum the house .......
and do the mopping too ...
So to cut a long story short.
I know deep down how fortunate I am to have the means to make anything at all, let alone to whinge about it.
This stump I'm tripping over, I will eventually be able to jump.
It just would be nice to not go through this all the time.
It stunts my creativity.
It stunts the joy I get from creating, which is ultimately why I make things in the first place. It gives me incredible joy.
Mine is not the first post of this kind.
I've read many like it over the years.
It's a common feeling many seem to go through.
Which is a small comfort.
My next post will be more positive.
I'll make sure of that.